I PROMISE.

My bestfriend pm-ed me on Tumblr.

She said, "Abie ♥ imisyouuuu"

then i replied. That I really really missed her A LOT.

I've always wanted to have a bestfriend by my side. Since she left the country, I've never had a permanent bff. Yes, I called other my bestfriend since they're always with me and just hanging out.. But the one whom you can tell secrets? The one whom you can talk on the phone until your eyebags are on? None. Gone.

I wonder if she found her bestfriend in her new country. I wonder if she's happy.

I just want to be with her right now. I want to tell her stories about what happened to me 6 years ago after she left. I want to tell her that I've always wanted to write a letter and give it to her but there's so many hindrances.. I want our connection to be always there :(

Naiiyak na tuloy ako.. :'(

Now. I promise to keep in touch with her. ALWAYS.

i love You Janella ♥

I just want to dance.

I am really really addicted to all this KPOP thing. Maybe because.. I just like them? No. Also because they HAD what I want.

I am a Junior high student. I'm gonna pick what course should I take for my college degree. It will be my guide for a better future. But as I think of the things that I want to do.. or I need to do, I felt so unsure. I've never been so much confuse in my whole life. I know that I should think wisely, and choose what my heart and mind is telling..

But I just can't.

When I just a child, or I say, up until now, I always tell myself that i should choose a course in which I can earn money easier when I take a job. Ofcourse, for me to have a better life. But, would I be happy? If I choose something that I'll just force myself to do it, would I be happy? No.

Mom told me that whatever path I take, she'll support me. Just make sure that the path I'm taking is where I really wanna be.

What I really wanna do? DANCING.

Yes, dancing is really my "thing". That's the only talent that I can really really say that I'm really good at and I'm proud of. People always praise me for doing this.. and I can't do nothing but to be proud of myself. I want to dance now, in the future,.. forever.

But how? How can I achieve what I REALLY want? The thing that will surely make me happy, is very... unsure. No proof if I'll earn money, or if I will have a good job.

But I just want to dance..

Now, I see the reason why I love KPOP so much. Because it inspires me to continue what I want to do at the first place and to not lose hope.. Because if they did, I know in myself that i can also do it.

To be a famous dancer and artist, indeed.