I PROMISE.

My bestfriend pm-ed me on Tumblr.

She said, "Abie ♥ imisyouuuu"

then i replied. That I really really missed her A LOT.

I've always wanted to have a bestfriend by my side. Since she left the country, I've never had a permanent bff. Yes, I called other my bestfriend since they're always with me and just hanging out.. But the one whom you can tell secrets? The one whom you can talk on the phone until your eyebags are on? None. Gone.

I wonder if she found her bestfriend in her new country. I wonder if she's happy.

I just want to be with her right now. I want to tell her stories about what happened to me 6 years ago after she left. I want to tell her that I've always wanted to write a letter and give it to her but there's so many hindrances.. I want our connection to be always there :(

Naiiyak na tuloy ako.. :'(

Now. I promise to keep in touch with her. ALWAYS.

i love You Janella ♥

I just want to dance.

I am really really addicted to all this KPOP thing. Maybe because.. I just like them? No. Also because they HAD what I want.

I am a Junior high student. I'm gonna pick what course should I take for my college degree. It will be my guide for a better future. But as I think of the things that I want to do.. or I need to do, I felt so unsure. I've never been so much confuse in my whole life. I know that I should think wisely, and choose what my heart and mind is telling..

But I just can't.

When I just a child, or I say, up until now, I always tell myself that i should choose a course in which I can earn money easier when I take a job. Ofcourse, for me to have a better life. But, would I be happy? If I choose something that I'll just force myself to do it, would I be happy? No.

Mom told me that whatever path I take, she'll support me. Just make sure that the path I'm taking is where I really wanna be.

What I really wanna do? DANCING.

Yes, dancing is really my "thing". That's the only talent that I can really really say that I'm really good at and I'm proud of. People always praise me for doing this.. and I can't do nothing but to be proud of myself. I want to dance now, in the future,.. forever.

But how? How can I achieve what I REALLY want? The thing that will surely make me happy, is very... unsure. No proof if I'll earn money, or if I will have a good job.

But I just want to dance..

Now, I see the reason why I love KPOP so much. Because it inspires me to continue what I want to do at the first place and to not lose hope.. Because if they did, I know in myself that i can also do it.

To be a famous dancer and artist, indeed.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

I just watched the much-awaited movie of the year! LOL. Sorry for fangirl-ing so much here.. I just can't get over! -__-

So after our Semestral Examination, Me, Trixie, Joseph, Kate, Najee, Jhaymie and Janen went to SM Marilao to watch Harry Potter and the DH. As u

sual, I was the one who let them come with me :) becox i want company! It's much better to watch it with friends..

When we went to check the time at the cinema, it alre

ady started! And becox it's only one-time viewing, we hurried like fuuu.. and I was completely disappointed earlier. I want to watch it whole. But, fuu. never mind. It's just 10 minutes. K.

I was so speechless during the whole movie (except by those moments where Naj and Kate's always asking me about that and that and I got distracted. I cant concentrate to what they're saying, lol. British accents are cute but, y'know, Haha..)

I soooo was shocked. The effects are, woah. The film have grown darker in tone and theme. Really an eye-alarming.

The movie is so unpredictable. You wouldn't know where they'll let us laugh or weep. I, srsly wept twice during the movie. First, is when Harry visited the grave of his Mum and Dad at the Godrics Hollow. And second, and the most dramatic scene, for me, is Dobby's death. Fuckeett.. I really cried. It's just so.... sad. :( cox after all the years that he protected Harry Potter.. omygod :(

The ending was.. Honestly speaking, not lovely at all.. Voldemort just snatch the Elder Wand at Dumbledore's grave then he raised his hands like yeah then.. TUT! done. finished.

The movie, to summarize, was awesome for me. For me who grew up with Harry Potter. Who read all the books instead of reading her lessons. Who is a very big fan of it. Even tho others don't appreciate the movie, I can't think any negative commenta about it.. I appreciated every bits o

f David Yates' and most specially, the actors and actrsses' hardwork for this epic movie...

The trio's friendship grew stronger and stronger.. After all they have struggled together, this is it.. The end started, and they faced it together.. Especially when Harry comforted Hermione when she's at solitude, due to Ron's departure. they danced like yeah! and laughed.. and cried.. And when Ron saved Harry's like and got the Gryffindor's wand.. I envy their friendship, siriusly. :")

So I guess.. I have to wait for July 2011.. for the last part..After all, it's worth the wait! I wish this dont have to end. :"(

“Such a beautiful place. Such a beautiful place to be with friends. Friends, Harry Potter.”

- Dobby, Deathly Hallows Part 1.

Saranghae..

kakatapos ko lang panuorin yung finale ng Playful Kiss.. at sa pauli-ulit kong panonood sakanya, naiiyak ako..

Sobrang kwela at nakakakilig yung drama.. Sabiin na nating may pagka-desperada si Ha Ni, pero hindi parin siya sumuko kay Seung Jo.. at sila pa ang nagkatuluyan!

Hindi nila alam na sila pala ang magkakatuluyan sa huli. Nakakatuwang isipin, na ang dalawang taong sobrang magkaiba ng personalidad, pag-uugali at katuhan, ay pinagtagpo ng tadhana para may matutunan sa isa’t-isa..

At dun niya nalaman na siya pala ang hinahanap niyang “kulang” sa buhay niya, umpisa pa lang.. :”)

Nung natapos ko na yung huling episode, eto agad ang pumasok sa isip ko :

Na ang High School, p[unung-puno yan ng romance.. Kung walang lalaki, para san pa ang love letters? chocolates? sweet convos? Pero hindi ko naman sinasabing yun ang bumubuo sa parte ng high School life.. Masaya din kasing magiging parte ka nito. At mararansan mo 'to.

Sana lang.. ganun din yung takbo ng buhay ko.. Parang kay Oh Ha Ni at Baek Seung Jo. :(

Kahit anong gawin mo sa buhay, kailangan gawin mo ito ng NAKANGITI.

Na-realize ko lang to bigla, noong pinanood ko yung episode ng Playful Kiss ^_^ sobrang nkaka-motivate at nkaka-inspire.

Naisip kong, wala sa talino ang takbo ng buhay mo. Meron nga sa atin ang nagiging mga propesyonal, pero hindi naman matalino diba? Naisip ko kasing, bakit ako magpapakahirap sa isang bagay.. kung hindi naman ako masayang ginagawa yon.

Inaamin ko ding, hindi ako ganon katalino at kagaling. Maraming bagay din ang pinapalya ko. Kagaya nalang sa pag-lalaro ng volleyball. Hindi talaga ko marunong non! Pero, ano naman? Eh magaling naman ako sa Badminton. Bakit ako ngangawa, kung hindi naman tlga para sa akin ang larong yon? Simple lang yan.. maging kuntento ka.. habang masaya ka :)

Gusto ko kasi i-program sa utak ko na, wag kong ipilit ang mga bagay na hindi talaga pupwede. Hindi lang ako magiging masaya! Para san pa diba? Parang sinasayang ko lang yung buhay ko.. tapos malungkot pa ko -__-

I can see that there's still a *sparkle*

While waiting for my service to pick us, I saw him and his comrades doing the campaign. Droping a smile and shakehands to the people around.. wishing if you can also give me one. When I saw you coming nearer in where I'm standing, I hesitated and walked away. So that we would not meet each other's eyes..

Tired of waiting to my school service, me and my friends sat down at the bench. My eyes landed on the group of people standing at the school beside our school. There they are. Campaigning. When almost all the students in that school got out, and we're still waiting, and they started to walk. Shockingly, I saw him coming nearer to me again.. my heart started to beat very fast. The feeling that I never felt almost 7 months ago.. the feeling in which I cried a lot and beg to just come off. I stared at Christine, asking for help.. what will I do?! He's coming to me. He's smiling! I think he will talk to me or what !

And then he did. He said...

"Ano na Bee? :)" I'm not exactly sure with that words.. I'm still in the state of shock. And I'm focusing in his face.. cherishing the moment until it lasts..

I just smiled. A smile without bitterness at all.

Then I put hands up asking for a handshake, then we did. A VERY TIGHT one...

Before he came to me, he was smiling while walking.. He's staring at me.. the smile. The smile which I crave for almost 7 months. The smile that made my heart melt... The smile that made my heart pound and hesitate.. am I really over him? ... or I am just fooling myself that I already let go of him?

we were almost there... what happened?

on being a writer wanna-be

I was watching awhile ago a video of J.K Rowling's interview with Oprah. In this warm, funny and candid interview, Jo opens up to Oprah on many aspects of her life and her feeling on the Harry Potter phenomenon.

Her struggles when she was just writing the first book. I remembered she said that 12 publishers REJECTED the first Harry Potter book. She also heard voice that it will be hard for her to make the first book published but when she make it, it will become huge. Her inspirational words moved me and made me realized that if I really want to pursue my dreams in life, there's no imposible if I believe in my own determination.

I want to be a writer someday. I'm not dreaming to be a famous one, though. I just want to show to other people what I can do and I want to be known for the things I've done. That seeing them reading my works and appreciated it makes me satisfied in life... But some people said that I'm not going to be a writer. That it takes so much effort to have what I want. That I'm not given so much talent in the line of writings. But I want to prove them that they're wrong. I'll study hard and chase my dreams :3 I want to write a book. A book just like Harry potter.. and I want to inspire other people..

"it is IMPOSIBLE to live without failing at something"

- Joanne Kathleen Rowling.

Oh, the feeling!

last September 21, 2010 (sorry for the late update)

VALPRISAA Athletics was held at Philippines Sports Complex, Pasig City.

We, LCCV Athletics Team went there.. Ready to battle :P

When we saw our different opponents from different school.. O_O They're so fcking... MANY O_O I can't even.. Then we looked down to ourselves.. saying that it's really hard to win against them because we're only 14 and the other' school's players were like, almost 20..

Different events were held..

* 100 meter dash

* 200 meter dash

* 400 meter dash

* 800 meter dash

* 1500 meter dash

* 3000 meter dash

* 4 x 100 meters relay

* 4 x 400 meters relay

* Javelin Throw

* Discuss Throw

* Shotput Throw

One player should only join 3 events.. I joined 100 meter dash, Discuss Throw and 4 x 100 meters relay. Luckily, I won bronze in 100m, bronze in Discuss and GOLD in relay :)

We, The LCCV Team brought home almost 18 Golds respectively. And loads of Silver and Bronze medals.. and in the end, we didn't regret joining such a wonderful experience :) We trusted ourselves, as weel as to our teammates, determined to win until the end, and did our very best to win not only for ourselves, but for the people who's involve in your successfulness :)

TEAM LCCV FOREVER!

Please.. :(

Don't make me assume things again.. I'm happy with my life now.. I'm moving on and letting go. I can live without you now..

Is it really your hobby? Entering girls' heart, and after a few seconds, will go and pretend that nothing happened? STF. Can you not? I don't think you can change your self anymore.. as well as your personality.

Please.. don't make me believe with your lies AGAIN.. You really don't want to make me happy. You really want me to suffer. You want me to bear the pain. To endure every single torns in which breaks my heart.. I hate this feeling.. I hate it.. I hate you.. :(

I miss the feeling of..

Being in love..

The way he smiles.. He dance.. He talk.. and the way he holds your hand..

At that time, you don't know any other guys.. only him. Becox at that time, you're deeply in love with each other.

Saying Goodnight whenever he sleeps after your looong conversation, and saying Goodmorning in which starts your day great. Cheering you up whenever you feel so fucked up, and just after hearing his voice, you will feel no problem at all..

Planning for the future.. What will you do on his birthday, what bday gift do you want for him to give you, and how long will the both of you will stay like this..

You feel COMPLETE. No worries. No problems. Because he said that you're the only one. But.. nothing lasts forever. Just when you realized that you're willing to give everything for him, and you're willing to give all you heart, the storm came with a big thunder.

And yess. Since then, your whole world cracked up. you're heart were torn apart.. and was broke into pieces..

After what happened.. You're there.. enduring and bearing the pain. Waiting for a MAN who will fix up your broken heart..

Good afternoon!

Just updating my blogspot. It's kinda hard and I'm just starting to teach myself about this..

Have a sweet Sunday, people!