Saranghae..

kakatapos ko lang panuorin yung finale ng Playful Kiss.. at sa pauli-ulit kong panonood sakanya, naiiyak ako..

Sobrang kwela at nakakakilig yung drama.. Sabiin na nating may pagka-desperada si Ha Ni, pero hindi parin siya sumuko kay Seung Jo.. at sila pa ang nagkatuluyan!

Hindi nila alam na sila pala ang magkakatuluyan sa huli. Nakakatuwang isipin, na ang dalawang taong sobrang magkaiba ng personalidad, pag-uugali at katuhan, ay pinagtagpo ng tadhana para may matutunan sa isa’t-isa..

At dun niya nalaman na siya pala ang hinahanap niyang “kulang” sa buhay niya, umpisa pa lang.. :”)

Nung natapos ko na yung huling episode, eto agad ang pumasok sa isip ko :

Na ang High School, p[unung-puno yan ng romance.. Kung walang lalaki, para san pa ang love letters? chocolates? sweet convos? Pero hindi ko naman sinasabing yun ang bumubuo sa parte ng high School life.. Masaya din kasing magiging parte ka nito. At mararansan mo 'to.

Sana lang.. ganun din yung takbo ng buhay ko.. Parang kay Oh Ha Ni at Baek Seung Jo. :(

Kahit anong gawin mo sa buhay, kailangan gawin mo ito ng NAKANGITI.

Na-realize ko lang to bigla, noong pinanood ko yung episode ng Playful Kiss ^_^ sobrang nkaka-motivate at nkaka-inspire.

Naisip kong, wala sa talino ang takbo ng buhay mo. Meron nga sa atin ang nagiging mga propesyonal, pero hindi naman matalino diba? Naisip ko kasing, bakit ako magpapakahirap sa isang bagay.. kung hindi naman ako masayang ginagawa yon.

Inaamin ko ding, hindi ako ganon katalino at kagaling. Maraming bagay din ang pinapalya ko. Kagaya nalang sa pag-lalaro ng volleyball. Hindi talaga ko marunong non! Pero, ano naman? Eh magaling naman ako sa Badminton. Bakit ako ngangawa, kung hindi naman tlga para sa akin ang larong yon? Simple lang yan.. maging kuntento ka.. habang masaya ka :)

Gusto ko kasi i-program sa utak ko na, wag kong ipilit ang mga bagay na hindi talaga pupwede. Hindi lang ako magiging masaya! Para san pa diba? Parang sinasayang ko lang yung buhay ko.. tapos malungkot pa ko -__-

I can see that there's still a *sparkle*

While waiting for my service to pick us, I saw him and his comrades doing the campaign. Droping a smile and shakehands to the people around.. wishing if you can also give me one. When I saw you coming nearer in where I'm standing, I hesitated and walked away. So that we would not meet each other's eyes..

Tired of waiting to my school service, me and my friends sat down at the bench. My eyes landed on the group of people standing at the school beside our school. There they are. Campaigning. When almost all the students in that school got out, and we're still waiting, and they started to walk. Shockingly, I saw him coming nearer to me again.. my heart started to beat very fast. The feeling that I never felt almost 7 months ago.. the feeling in which I cried a lot and beg to just come off. I stared at Christine, asking for help.. what will I do?! He's coming to me. He's smiling! I think he will talk to me or what !

And then he did. He said...

"Ano na Bee? :)" I'm not exactly sure with that words.. I'm still in the state of shock. And I'm focusing in his face.. cherishing the moment until it lasts..

I just smiled. A smile without bitterness at all.

Then I put hands up asking for a handshake, then we did. A VERY TIGHT one...

Before he came to me, he was smiling while walking.. He's staring at me.. the smile. The smile which I crave for almost 7 months. The smile that made my heart melt... The smile that made my heart pound and hesitate.. am I really over him? ... or I am just fooling myself that I already let go of him?

we were almost there... what happened?

on being a writer wanna-be

I was watching awhile ago a video of J.K Rowling's interview with Oprah. In this warm, funny and candid interview, Jo opens up to Oprah on many aspects of her life and her feeling on the Harry Potter phenomenon.

Her struggles when she was just writing the first book. I remembered she said that 12 publishers REJECTED the first Harry Potter book. She also heard voice that it will be hard for her to make the first book published but when she make it, it will become huge. Her inspirational words moved me and made me realized that if I really want to pursue my dreams in life, there's no imposible if I believe in my own determination.

I want to be a writer someday. I'm not dreaming to be a famous one, though. I just want to show to other people what I can do and I want to be known for the things I've done. That seeing them reading my works and appreciated it makes me satisfied in life... But some people said that I'm not going to be a writer. That it takes so much effort to have what I want. That I'm not given so much talent in the line of writings. But I want to prove them that they're wrong. I'll study hard and chase my dreams :3 I want to write a book. A book just like Harry potter.. and I want to inspire other people..

"it is IMPOSIBLE to live without failing at something"

- Joanne Kathleen Rowling.